What is confidence?

I was talking to my mum when I said “I had no confidence when I was young.”

She then said “That’s normal.”

For her, confidence is what you CAN do and how WELL you can do. 

But to me, when I said to my mum that I used to have no confidence, I meant that I didn’t believe myself. 

I think, for many people, confidence is something what my mum perceives. 

And it used to be that way to me. 

At one point in my life, I misunderstood that “I had no value.”

So I began “making effort” to “earn” a reputation, a prize, a title, a score….etc. 

Studying hard, taking exams to be qualified, having eye lush extension etc….

But I was never, ever, satisfied. 

Even if everyone praised, even if I got the top prize or grade, I never felt enough. 

Don’t get me wrong though, studying hard towards prize or grade, getting beauty treatments are all good. 

What wasn’t right about the way I was doing what I was doing was, 

I was doing all these activities with the belief that “I wasn’t enough.”

I was doing everything in order to EARN something that I believed that was missing. 

Because there’s nothing that was missing, as everything was within myself, 

I could never ever satisfied with all the things I was doing!

I only found out why after I came across with energy work. 

And that’s how I got in touch with my inner child. 

​I had to allow my inner child to speak to me.